Lady Gaga has revealed on the Howard Stern show today how she was raped at the age of 19 by a record producer. The record producer was 20 years older than her at the time.
It's been almost ten years since the incident, and Lady Gaga, now 28, says she kept it bottled inside and was scared of telling anyone about her ordeal. She says she just finally got healing by mentally confronting the situation through getting therapy.
According to E Online, Lady Gaga made the revelation after host Howard Stern asked about the controersial performance of her song "Swine" last March. "Vomit painter" Millie Brown had spewed neon green liquid all over Lady Gaga during the song.
"Everyone's just looking for something to bitch about. Just lighten up! It's art! My friend Millie—she lives in London—it's her art form.
She doesn't eat food and vomit it up. She swallows gallons of paint, OK? She's a hardcore bitch. She swallows paint and then she regurgitates it on canvases in rainbows and color. It's bizarre to watch, and sometimes there's techno in the background, and sometimes someone's singing, and sometimes it's in silence."
"I wrote a song called 'Swine.' The song is about rape. The song is about demoralization. The song is about rage and fury and passion, and I had a lot of pain that I wanted to release.
I said to myself, 'I want to sing this song while I'm ripping hard on a drum kit, and then I want to get on a mechanical bull'—which is probably one of the most demoralizing things that you can put a female on in her underwear—'and I want this chick to throw up on me in front of the world so that I can tell them, you know what?
You could never, ever degrade as much as I could degrade myself, and look how beautiful it is when I do.'"
"You keep alluding to...were you raped by a record producer?" Stern asked.
"I don't...I don't want to...Happy times! Let's talk about happy things!"
Dailymail reports that Lady Gaga goes on to speak more on the rape;
“I don’t want to be defined by it. I’ll be damned if somebody’s gonna say that every creatively intelligent thing that I ever did is all boiled down to one d–khead who did that to me,” Gaga said. “I’m going to take responsibility for all my pain looking beautiful. All the things that I’ve made out of my strife, I did that.”
Gaga said she never confronted the man, and if she were to run in to him again, she isn’t sure how she would react.
I think it would terrify me. It would paralyze me. I saw him one time in a store and I was so paralyzed by fear. Because it wasn’t until I was a little bit older that I went, ‘Wow, that was really messed up.’”
Gaga said it’s especially hard since the man has told people that they used to date!
“You were 20 years older than me. I was a kid. How is that a date? It took me a long time to feel strong about it. I don’t know what I was thinking. I didn’t tell anybody. And I didn’t even tell myself for the longest time. And then I was like, ‘You know what? All this drinking and all this nonsense, you have to go to the source, otherwise it just won’t go away. It will not go away.”
"I went through some horrific things that I'm able to laugh [at] now, because I've gone through a lot of mental and physical therapy and emotional therapy to heal over the years. My music's been wonderful for me. But, you know, I was a shell of my former self at one point. I was not myself.
"To be fair, I was about 19. I went to Catholic school and then all this crazy stuff happened, and I was going, 'Oh, is this just the way adults are?'...I was very naïve."
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